Vidya Vijayan
Infosys
Wanderer!
From time to time, I wonder,
What is that I ache for!
Is it health, wealth or happiness,
In this mortal journey to find purpose.
Listening to my heart, I went forth,
To make a difference, be the change.
Wanting to be at the wheel by myself,
I ended up in a hamster wheel!
No courage to fight mediocrity,
Succumbed to the typical social norms,
The cowardly self recoiled within,
Retreating into a cocoon of solitude!
Inside, my heart longed for peace,
For peace was one thing so scarce.
Faked a smile, to avoid the stares,
But my soul staggered - I felt lost!
Emotionally numb, the spark inside died,
Every time I settled for acceptance.
Sobbed in silence, my grief-stricken soul,
Shattered and hardened, time and again!
Expectations had weighed me down,
I was a feather, a pappus of dandelion,
Wandering freely, happily floating away,
In the winds of ease and tranquility!
No longer, I yearn for happiness,
For true joy is a farce, a fantasy!
Yet, my life I hold dear, I sail ahead,
Oblivion or eternity, whatever awaits!
Everyone wants to belong, they say,
Every time I tried, I broke inside.
I don't belong anywhere, I realize,
For I am but a lonely wanderer!