Yes I bleed,

With blood stains and pains in company

Day and night.

The harder my pain, the more I bleed

But still I find the joy in my bleeding days

For making the woman I am today

Like the sun that burns in red and lightens the universe

Let the burning pain in my blood , be the richness of tommorrow

Yes I bleed,

Day and night as a biological bliss;

Though the narrow minded see me as a bitch

On my bleeding days,

I know how pure my existence is

Like the solar eclipse,  I pass my bleeding days

In darkness and closed away from the ordinary

But I know, what i bleed;

What my blood stains is to my womanhood is!

Like the blood on the moon yet pure

Where I myself evolve to be an evolution catalyst

So is every eclipse is to the universe,

Waiting for cycles of fortunes to evolve and witness.

So is my bleed , my fortune cycle for my future generations to evolve and witness;

What the mystery of life and universe has to offer !!

I stood in a deluge

and wept and wept

till my voice was unheard.

Deeper and Deeper my sorrow grew

leaving a rueful feel inside.

Footprints of the past did change my view

but left out was I, as none didn't change.

Gross and Gross the world grew

and loner was I, as I didn't change.

The blue yonder streaks with hues of yellow and red,

The chirping of the larks fill the deep spirited woods,

Buried inside, a burning heart lies scarred,

The shadows of yesterday etched forever within.

Her face and her gentle warmth kiss me like the morning sun,

Spreading its rays among the jovial sunflower fields,

Her caressing smile lights up my darkest nights,

The memories of her hasten me ahead in my rocky path.

Shares of crimson and red sparkle bright,

Like crushed shellac upon the forest floors,

The crystal blue rivers stand frozen in time,

Like silent sentinels at the gates of eternity.

Whence I came from, where I go to, I don't yet know,

Chasing the evening zephyr and the afternoon rains,

Yearning to be with my one, whom I truly cherish and desire,

These are the lingering ballads of a melancholy heart.

For all those words which made me smile…

For all those doings that put me at ease…

For all those moments where I forgot to thank…

I used to wonder…whether I really need to…

Selfless was you to me and all…

In this world of narrow hearts…

Like a chilling breeze of times…

It made me feel out of loneliness…

Should I curse the so called fate…

For taking you away from this worldly life…

Now that you went beyond my reach…

How could I say I miss you a lot…

If there is a second life…which I wish…

All that I want is to be with you more and more…

And for the days that made us together…

Dear friend…I am indebted…beyond words…

In a land arid and sparse,

A sculptor with nothing to craft

All with his tools, he is alone

Away from his atelier,

In the quest for a stone

Wanderlust has taken away by the wind

Thirst persists though he is stubborn to rewind,

Wrapped in the sand, storm blinded his way

Nothing could stop him, he moved on,

In the quest to win his bay

Eyes traveled far, aspiring to delight

Seems his travel ceases on that sight,

That painted in blue that gives life,

Shaded in green that reflects lives

White limestone there in between in heights,

Closer he reached, farther it goes

Gained with a sprint, but goes in vain, 

It vanished and made him insane,

With a sigh again he commences,

In the quest for a stone

Farther he goes, he felt the vultures

Death looms, to feed and rupture,

His desires taciturn, but strong

Fought a war to survive,

The quest goes along

Halfway to realize his dreams

On the foot of a dune, at last, he arrived

In the oasis of hope, where he revived,

The little breeze preen him from his feet,

As a groom, he goes on,

The quest for his better half

He could see stones many

Well garnished and shiny, 

But none with soul and all hollow,

Walked on in solo,

The quest for his soul mate

Discarded in the dirt, the last stone lies

Covered with mosses and fern away from light

Unseen he stumbled and rammed on that stone

In that pain, he felt her soul,

The quest is done!

Cleansed her with his blood

Venerated with the tears he shed

Caressed her; the child of the earth

Untied his desires, slowly and lovely

To carve this beauty, lost lady-love

The lady he loved, still a stone, carved out.

Still, he bleeds, no more life to see her alive

Heard her voice, whispers of leaves?

He opened his eyes, there she is!

Ladylove took his head on her lap

They kissed till the last gasp,

Merging their soul, they turned to stone,

The lament ends, dissolving to the earth

Come Lets Burry the Evil Hands!!

Am taking you to a home
Where you will find that Dark ROOM!!
Open the room to see that shadows
Darkness encircled their meadows!!
not even the bright light will bring them back
Coz they missed their dreams in an ATTACK!!
Am taking you inside two hearts
Where you will find HER-“THEIR PRINCESS!!!
Open your eyes!!
You will see her tears 
Listen to the hearts
Coz its their pain you sense
For us,the two shadows might be two persons
But years back,they were HER PARENTS!!
Yes,she was the Sunshine
For them,its divine!!
THEIR LITTLE PRINCESS!!!

Her smile coloured their dreams
It gave them new wings
She walked,she ran,she fell
With her innocence she wrote her tale

her DAD hugged her and said:
“DEAR COLOR MA DREAMS!! 
She whimpered kissing his cheeks
And looked into his eyes
It spoke silently “DAD I WILL”
And he was sure she will

And her mom whispered in her ears
“Dear you are ma WORLD”
She wobbled in her arms
And smiled as SHE WILL NEVER MISS HER WORLD

Years passed but she stood steady
Moments passed,and it made her ready!!
Moved far away from their world
But the new one was so weird

Still she withstand as it was her promise
THAT ONE DAY SHE GONNA COLOR HER DAD’s DREAMS!!

Still she managed to be fine
Coz her mom will be free from pain

But one day everything changed
And their dreams and darkness merged
That news came with immense pain
And it made them insane

That little chum who whimpered
That cute princess they cuddled
EXCRUCIATED By some scoundrels
And her life was quashed by those rogues

And what left was permanent wounds
It made her life without sounds
Those two hearts rushed to see
Coz their LIFE AND WORLD is SHE

They wept badly for her life
They prayed deeply for THEIR LIFE
But everything was in vain
And she left them in pain!!

But touching was her final WORDS
“MOM AND DAD I WANNA LIVE!!
Never let those rogues to be free birds
MOM!! DAD!! I JUST WANNA LIVE!!

But she left them in sorrows
And still they live in Shadows!!
They fought hardly for justice
And gave those rogues the worst OUTCOME!!

Coz for the one they now MISS
Infinite problems they will OVERCOME!!
But everynight staring at her in the wall
They Used to weep badly and Fall

OH!! ma child You came
To color our dreams
Your smile was a flame
And it encircled our world

Oh!!ma child now you are gone
To sleep in the lap of eternity
Oh!! ma Child,now you are gone
In a world without fallibility

So we live in darkness
Darkness you created by your absence
come back and Color our dream again
Come back and BE our WORLD AGAIN :'(

In a WORLD where GIRLS LIVE
Without the FEAR of PROBLEMS TO SURVIVE!!
A world which burry
All EVILS of WORRY

Come lets burry all the evil hands!!

ARISE AWAKE and EVOKE!!

say no to harassment against women!!

In pursuit of real me moment to moment
the absolute inescapable me .
Unwinding me entangled in emotions
Reached at a narrow line of horizon.
Attempting to touch the end points
Discovering miles yet  to unroll .
This journey of unsettled string continues
with the hope to reach the purpose
unknowingly meant to travel in line.

He opened his eyes with snowflakes scattered eyelashes,

Every tiny movement sending a striking pain.

He looks around, with bits and pieces of memory flashes,

All he could find is his down jacket filled with blood stain.

He suddenly remembers his mission to strive,

But, for a second, he wonders, Am I alive?

Sitting in front of the blue screen, the computer flickers

He loses his patience, yet forced to act nice.

Favorable promotions, handsome salary, he notices those boot-lickers,

Yet, with all due respect, he was asked to let go of his ego. Twice.

Going back home, on a lazy drive,

He stops and ponders; Am I alive?

Gathering his stuff and a trekking pole, he stumbles upon the thick snow,

With the sun gradually rising, his body starts to feel warm.

Thanks to the sunlight, he can now see the three snow-filled mountains in a row,

He slowly remembers hiking the impossible summit with a swarm.

O, thy nature, you are indeed beautiful yet cruel,

And looking at the summit far, far away he exclaimed; Is this a dream? Am I alive?

Quitting wasn’t easy, yet so was doing the unlikable,

Thinking about his comfort zone, he packed his bags for the trek.

Challenging, as it was an impossible journey, yet few claimed it as doable,

He needed this vacation as he was an emotional wreck.

With a heart full of excitement, he checks-in live,

Reaching for his trekking pole, taking the first step onto the snow, he murmured, I feel alive!

With the sun now completely up, he could see his plight so clear,

Having slipped from a mountain is never a pleasant sight.

With severe pain, he clutched on to his son’s photo which he held dear,

Tears trembling, he whispers to his son, “you should have seen this view filled with first light”.

Before he could notice his friends running towards him to help,

He lets go of his will, while collapsing he shuts his eyes and exclaims, “I AM ALIVE”!

Yonder it shines the never-ending horizon of my newer choice

Where flowers bloom and rivers flow, full many a moment to rejoice.

Plunged into wanderlust, I woke up to behold those mighty rays

Glimmering over the bland remnants of foregone days.

Thirty years it took to crack the glossy cocoon and come to light

Better it’s late, and before fake merriness hits life’s twilight.

I geared up to see the world, smothering the sleeping kid in me

A far cry from my archaic self it was, for kith and kin to see.

Into the woods and up the hills, I walked like an innocent child

Mesmerized by nature’s hues and bewildered by the pristine wild.

Free concerts by hidden cascades that lengthened to several streams,

All my emotions spread out more vividly than in lucid dreams.

Spring and Autumn I saw, the beauty of green and yellow leaves

Followed by snow, the summer rain, and the petrichor it leaves.

Rodents ran their errands, so do the ants and bonny rabbits

Over the wet morning mosses, spread like green velvet carpets.

Summoned by serene beaches, where crabs take their lazy crawl

And waves steadily do their job, sank my feet on white sand as I stroll.

Breaking waves and among coral reefs, I swam into the nether world

Around me in colorful patterns anchovies and sardines whirled.

Amidst those towers and well-lit skyscrapers rushed the pricey car

Through its glass window I gazed, with no worries, biting a chocolate bar.

Stories of toil and torture they said, the alien city and its walls...

Pompous ladies walked the shining floors of posh shopping malls.

Busy walking streets, filled with careless footprints of the night

Flesh wrapped in flawless skin put on sale, enhanced by red red light.

In museums are paintings of damsels; ornate gowns they wore

Like queens they lived, knew not the woes of a hapless whore

Away from the city lies deceiving mirages and vast sand dunes

Camels took me where feast is served and violins play Arabic tunes.

Bare bellies on chiseled pelves danced and men put their skin on fire

Exotic wines on brass goblets were served and meat cooked on raw fire.

Vast is the Earth and short is my life, I have “miles to go” as well

Lands, waters, and skies left to uncover, there rings the bell.

Like the American poet, on birches “toward heaven” I long to swing

Or from the real world for good, let a lonely albatross take me on the wing.

The best tunes had started playing

And I had grown up into a beautiful lady-

A lady with opinions, thoughts and questions

Independent and confident individual I was

Gifted with a bunch of fabulous experiences

I was writing the beautiful tale of my life

Alas! A pause to the journey over the bed of roses

And life took its drastic twist 

My neighbor was he - my childhood buddy

I never realised his hands would grab me

Crushed between his hands, I saw the beast in him

I heard few more boots and chit chats

I cried and cried but nowhere my voice reached

I was torn apart like lifeless 

Rods, candles, drugs and what not

Every inch of my body was crushed

Severe pain drenched my nerves

Blood oozing out all through my wounds

All pain..unbearable pain is what I remember

My views were blurred and my eyes were closed forever

A corpse I am now and have turned a victim

I am sleeping here peacefully cold n frozen

His lusty looks on me and his drooling mouth

The beast enjoyed my lifeless body

I screamed but who can hear me?

For I am lifeless and only my soul is awake

I too had my family, friends, ambitions.. 

I too had my dreams to capture

All my dreams were smashed..

Shattered for no mistake of mine

What mistake had I done to you

I was born a girl.. nothing else!!!

Do you still love her?

She's waiting for someone's love?

Never!! Her love is different

Like a lonely cactus in the desert

The thorns pierced..blood

Yes, blood is love..Her blood is love

Her love is different

Standing beside the snowy window

Hugging herself with an old book

"Love" the puzzling drama

None couldn't understand

The people pretend they got it

Were brilliant actors

Sorry She could find the truth

People love colors..they say "I love you"

Empty words from deserted people

Broken up!!Never..Love is not for lovers.

When are you in love

Everything is wrapped in love!!!

She's waiting for eternel love

"Something" that never compells..

"Someone" who kisses on forehead

When she get mad out of reading

"Some space" allows her to utter feelings

Her definition for love is different

Love is fat and thin, ugly and charming

It's dry and puffy

She waited at the snowy window..

Not waiting..Her love

Is now rolling down on the window..

For someone..somewhere..

Pages of the album were turning yellow,

Faded the photos were that had mellow;

Capturing the various snapshots in my life,

From genesis till my past with bygone rife.

Lay forgotten the camera aside quite old,

That took the shots through alot in fold;

Flipping through the pages one after another,

Takes me adrift in memories that wither.

Transient was I and the people right there,

Stood the constant sea, mountain and air;

Reliving these moments gives me a chill,

With a void in my heart that needs to fill.

Cold breeze blew then making me shiver,

Sentiments through me had my lips sliver;

Drops of tears rolling down my pale face,

Couldn’t hold up my heart still with a fence.

Lost was the feeling to be found right now,

Yearning for the people and places I know;

Thanking my snapshots for those memories,

As I close the album with the burden it carries.

I couldn't help 

A leaf from falling,

Couldn't console, 

Not even close to healing!

Alone stood the tree,

Lifeless fell the leaf.

So full yet so void 

And the ever lacerated leaf!

The incomplete tune 

And the half complete melody, 

Cried without tears

Over an insane, lame tragedy!

The unfinished song;

Mere words tied to phrases, 

In search of it's rhyme, 

Desperately lost in it's traces! 

I couldn't help 

A leaf from falling,

Couldn't console, 

Not even close to healing!

the need to store away
as if for a rainy day
in the dark recesses
of the matter, grey;
seems lost, replaced
by toys
 
but the water that flows
bites my molecules
as it soaks, shakes, stirs
my insides, the abyssal plains
 
of my secret garden
irrigated by the dishwater
from my soul kitchen, where
seedlings burst into lush cover
 
where the jpegs and the mpegs
are no match, for the vivid
red, green, and blue
that bloom, within.
 
the scar on a brow,
the smell of your clothes
keep floating on,
in the water, like strands
from a desiccated bark
of a tree, long gone.

The charred body of him lay in the hospital bed,
The smell of burnt flesh was in the air, stuck in my nostrils nauseating.
I could sense him slipping into a delirium, the piteous of all sights!
Out in the gloomy hallway, as I waited,
his wails ebbed amidst the dissonant hospital noise.

The love that I know isn't this savage,
that led two lives to a tragic end.
Doused in petrol, two bodies blazed, screamed and swayed,
and beholders watched in agony!
At last, like ‘alates’, wings dropped, fallen to the ground motionless!

When he had got his eyes on her,
She felt it as exhilarating and sublime!
Lost for words, the exchange of silent gazes filled their day.
The love that turned piercing the souls,
expected nothing more than enduring its bliss!

When he had whispered to her, you are the only one for me as mine,
they could not let that moment drift by, it was as sweet as a daydream!
When they had an urge to reciprocate, mere exchanges swamped them.
When they strived to belong to each other, sheer possessiveness wearied them!
Soon enough, the rip currents of social taboos caught them in and left them languished!

It was hell for him when she started to pull away.
It was terrible for her too to avoid him!
Both owed each other to the gift of love, can end up in blaming each other?
Can he stand the sight of his fond silhouette engulfed in flames,
whose rejuvenating smile he had longed till his last breath?
 
The toughened glass door opened hurriedly and I was let in,
to be by his side, the last and supreme favor to the dying!
his eyelids closed under sedation,
his chest heaving violently and gasping.
The death is near, he must be sensing it!

As I gripped his hand, his throat clogged with words which he couldn’t spit out.
In a moment, his eyes opened and gleamed in practical wisdom,
of having let his love go, than setting her on fire and to kill himself.
But a second chance in life to experience the ecstasy of love, isn't left with him anymore.
The love that I know isn't a death rattle!

Started off as thin stream, she crusaded over hills and valleys,

She grooved in so well that she left her mark through ever rock that she passed,

She met many rivers on her way as most of them had common goal to meet HIM!

All blushed when they thought of HIM - the mighty sea!

On her way, thousands washed themselves off and yet she was pure.

That was because of her innocence and integrity!

The current of other selfish creatures called humans often made her get dirtied because of their desires and lustful ambitions!

And at the end, every inch of her got murkier forever!

She wanted to be carefree as the flow took her wherever it could,

She could only be thankful to explore,

But slowly her flowing stream got interrupted!

She don't know how and when she lost her charm!

Lost in transit, she lost herself!

She wanted to regain herself soon,

Waiting for her rains of thoughts and joyful rainbow to bless her back!

She awaits for her lustrous glory to shine once again,

So that happily she reaches her mighty sea,

Even if it's brief meeting to bring a closure!

That's how she feels accomplished! 

For all those words which made me smile…

For all those doings that put me at ease…

For all those moments where I forgot to thank…

I used to wonder…whether I really need to…

Selfless was you to me and all…

In this world of narrow hearts…

Like a chilling breeze of times…

It made me feel out of loneliness…

Should I curse the so called fate…

For taking you away from this worldly life…

Now that you went beyond my reach…

How could I say I miss you a lot…

If there is a second life…which I wish…

All that I want is to be with you more and more…

And for the days that made us together…

Dear friend…I am indebted…beyond words…

I see her now, locked inside my old mirror,
Staring at me, her eyes bright with pure horror.
A ghost of a tear running down her cheek,
My fingers tremble and my knees go weak.

There was a time in the distant past,
When our features had a delicate cast.
She talked to me about her dreams,
And I, of my fears, my nocturnal screams.

She believed in showing her identity,
While I believed it was an obscenity.
Pinning her beautiful soul on her sleeve,
She thought there was nothing to grieve,

Alas! As time chimed away its warning bell,
Its tide pulled us both through gruelling hell,
She fell to its depths, fading into darkness,
I was retched up on the shore, into brightness.

And as I see her now, past all these years,
A hazy memory in my mirror of tears,
I remember a boy fighting desperately for his freedom,
And a girl who lived within his heart’s kingdom.
She was half of him and he was of her,
And now lived neither.
Because I am just a shell of that old boy,
Who wanted to be that girl, in her world of pure joy.

She and her lonely thoughts
Pondered and Wandered mindlessly
She can never be understood
Heartbreak only she must suffer

Moving on is easier to say
But the mind takes time to shutdown
She remembers his lovely smile
Which makes her heart meltaway

Her love for him teached her to trust
Difficult to surpass the care for him
Tears drop down unable to accept
His innocent face popping up on mind

She made herself comprehend
Brother's love is irreplaceable
She recollects the strength he gave
Which makes her stronger day by day

She tries to find happiness
Being lonely is just a thought
Life starts growing in her womb
Kicks and Jabs melt her heart with joy

She and her lonely thoughts
Pondered and wandered mindlessly
Up from the sky he keeps smiling
Which makes her heart meltaway!

Donot stand at my grave and cry
I am not your girl
Donot tell me teachers are like god
They will not hear me cry
Donot wipe my mother's tears
You didnot save my life evenif you had a chance
Donot tell i had dreams
You are standing on the grave of my dreams
And clipped my wings
Donot say sorry
when it is over
Donot pray for my soul
It will not wipe your sin.